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If He Had Been with Me
Written by Laura Nowlin
Narrated by Gina Rogers
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About this audiobook
An achingly authentic and raw portrait of love, regret, and the life-altering impact of the relationships we hold closest to us, this YA bestseller is perfect for fans of Kasie West, All the Bright Places, and Dear Evan Hansen.
If he had been with me, everything would have been different . . .
Autumn and Finn used to be inseparable. But then something changed. Or they changed. Now, they do their best to ignore each other.
Autumn has her boyfriend, Jamie, and her close-knit group of friends. And Finn has become that boy at school, the one everyone wants to be around.
That still doesn't stop the way Autumn feels every time she and Finn cross paths, and the growing, nagging thought that maybe things could have been different. Maybe they should be together.
But come August, things will change forever. And as time passes, Autumn will be forced to confront how else life might have been different if they had never parted ways . . .
If he had been with me, everything would have been different . . .
Autumn and Finn used to be inseparable. But then something changed. Or they changed. Now, they do their best to ignore each other.
Autumn has her boyfriend, Jamie, and her close-knit group of friends. And Finn has become that boy at school, the one everyone wants to be around.
That still doesn't stop the way Autumn feels every time she and Finn cross paths, and the growing, nagging thought that maybe things could have been different. Maybe they should be together.
But come August, things will change forever. And as time passes, Autumn will be forced to confront how else life might have been different if they had never parted ways . . .
LanguageEnglish
PublisherTantor Media, Inc
Release dateDec 22, 2020
ISBN9781705248928
Author
Laura Nowlin
Laura Nowlin is the author of the #1 New York Times bestselling and TikTok sensation If He Had Been with Me and If Only I Had Told Her. She holds a BA in English with an emphasis in creative writing from Missouri State University. Laura lives in St. Louis with her family.
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What our readers think
Readers find this title to be a beautifully written and heartbreaking story. Many reviewers were deeply moved by the emotional impact of the book, although some felt that the ending was rushed and left them wanting more. The character development and storytelling were praised, but there were mixed opinions about the pacing and predictability of the plot. Overall, this book evokes strong emotions and is recommended for those who enjoy poignant and bittersweet stories.
1 person found this helpful
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5
Oct 4, 2023
It was a teens diary . It had really sad parts but the ending . Really disappointing.1 person found this helpful
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5
Oct 4, 2023
I read it because someone picked it at book club it was okay1 person found this helpful
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
Oct 4, 2023
Good book will be waiting for the October release. To read his point of view1 person found this helpful
- Rating: 2 out of 5 stars2/5
Oct 4, 2023
Missed the teen rating on this one....booktok you have failed me. Very predictable ending.1 person found this helpful
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
Oct 4, 2023
Ohhh my gosh!!! I’m Absolutely Loving This Story… Whom ever reads this post? You Have To Hear/Read this story. It’s Beautiful…1 person found this helpful
- Rating: 1 out of 5 stars1/5
Oct 4, 2023
Maybe it was due to listening it on audiobook but it was too slow and couldn’t get into it. Did not even finish1 person found this helpful
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5
Oct 4, 2023
I loved it and then loved it and then...the ending made me not love it.1 person found this helpful
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
Jan 3, 2026
This book was so devastating and beautiful and I loved it all in one! - Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5
Aug 6, 2025
I dealt with the ending of this by spoiling myself before hand. Otherwise I would have been a sobbing mess. Honestly a lot of this between Autumn and Finn would have been solved by having a conversation, but I understand why they wouldn't based on their age alone. - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
Jul 19, 2025
I loved it so much but I was sad that he dies - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
May 31, 2025
It is one of the best books ever 100% recommend - Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5
May 18, 2025
I cried real tears towards the ending NOT what I expected but it was good. The writing style was not for me and it was slow at times. As a 21-year-old, I believe that since it's to younger audiences it does portray that. There were some things that were cringe but that was me. - Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5
Feb 26, 2025
A very beautiful, very unnecessarily traumatic childhood love story about miscommunication and wasting years by being a coward. So grateful I blessed my heart with 9 hours of torture. What the hell kind of ending was that?! - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
Feb 25, 2025
It will leave you in tears and your heart tore out ur chest. It’s a beautiful book. - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
Feb 1, 2025
I love the story bring me back to my years in school - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
Jan 4, 2025
it left me in tears, this was one of the best books I’ve read. Highly recommend! - Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5
Oct 26, 2024
Cute, Modern like Romeo and Juliet. Some of the story was a bit easy to guess. But it was loving, in a teenage puppy love turned, intimate, found your forever person love. I'm happy as a reader we were able to get the entire picture before the end. - Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5
Oct 17, 2024
Cute book. Felt like a long listen. Disappointed on the ending. - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
Oct 14, 2024
Devastatingly good. Cried. Smiled. Couldn’t stop listening to this. Such a good one. - Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5
Sep 12, 2024
My review is more of a 3.5. The storyline itself is good. However, being 34 the teen love story just wasn’t for me. I kept eye rolling at the scenes. I will say the ending has me trying to figure it out and wanting to know more! If there is a second book I have to read it. - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
Sep 9, 2024
My heart is ripped out and shattered into 6 trillion pieces - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
Sep 7, 2024
Well, I give a great big thanks for the emotional damage. - Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5
Aug 27, 2024
The reading style was different but once I got use to it I enjoyed it. I was not expecting that ended at all. - Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5
Aug 23, 2024
I liked it. I was all over the place up till the middle. The short chapters had me thinking this girl was imagining a lot of things happening. And then the ending I saw coming- still very sad. But was a good read. - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
Aug 2, 2024
Such a bittersweet story of young love. I don't read a lot of young adult but this brought me back to the days of being younger and enjoyed it. - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
Jul 12, 2024
This book absolutely wrecked me, I am genuinely not ok - Rating: 1 out of 5 stars1/5
Jun 3, 2024
I cannot get my time back after this. Goodbye sanity. - Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5
Jun 1, 2024
It was sooo good but that last part of the book was unnecessarily painful. - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
May 22, 2024
Finny and autumn deserved more time together. This book breaks your heart in the end. I loved it so much though - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
May 14, 2024
I was expecting to not enjoy the book as I'd seen alot of mixed reviews but I absolutely loved it definitely a 5 star Read highly recommend